Wednesday, June 16, 2010's been awhile!

First, let me apologize for just wanting to quit. I didn't expect to ever feel this way. Me????? Depressed???? OH PLUUUUUease. Yeah, I have had some obstacles thrown my way, but I have always been a positive happy-go-lucky person.

But it did happen.

I questioned myself. I questioned life. I questioned God. I hated myself. I hated life. I hated God.

Why you ask? I don't know. If I did know it would help me make sense of the past year. It would be so easy to find someone....something....anything to blame. I hurt family, old friends, and even new friends.

People have told me that I have changed and they want the "old" Vicky back. I have been trying to find her and I have seen glimpses of her from time to time. However, the "old" Vicky is caught in a cocoon....wrapping and shielding herself....and when she is totally able to break free....She will spread her wings proudly. Watch out world....I am coming back!